re-grouping

Well I have been thinking about my poor lonely blog here.. and how I can best reap the advantages of this lovely medium before me.

I do admit freely that I have a sort of blog envy festering inside.

People who use their blog daily - who actually do it- regularly - they are my heros.

Which sounds sorta sad in retrospect.

Scrap that.. my heros areeee.. lets say... firemen.

But me, I sit down and think of the days events behind me- and I just can't type it out..

or if I should get so far- i could virtually sprain my finger -> delete delete delete.

Combinations of deeply rooted insecurity and lack of trust I suppose keep me from using this blog the way i hoped i would have.

I have a handful of other pages i tune into - and I find I really do admire the way someone can freely share without the limitations i have wound myself up in.

The voice in my head saying- really who the hell ARE you talking too.. and the memory of trying to keep journals in my youth only to have them read.

I do think it is healthy to vent and move past daily frustrations.. and this seems perfect if I can get over my *issues*...- with new technology comes a myriad of technology based phobias and traumas.

although maybe I alone suffer from disambiguationphobia....

woah- my spell check just shed a little tear for that one.

Anyway- one way I know I can enjoy my little blog friend here is by reminding myself of one aspect of my original idea...

I may not be great with *pie* but ninja fun in the kitchen is a little building block corner of who I am..

I love to cook- bake.. and I want to document some of my edible artistry..

(is it vain to call it artistry?)

sure i wanna share my anger- and joy and pride and my visual artistry and all that fun stuff too.. but i do wanna share my love for kitchen acrobatics.

So I think I will start allowing myself to use this here blog..

and who knows- maybe it will become a habit..

AND if anyone is reading this and feels very bored indeed.. by all means go through and replace the word BLOG with the word VAGINA..

.cause it is fun.

and you all love my

BLOG.